UPDATE: woops!

Well I must appologise for not uploading in a long time :/. Just a lot of stuff going on at the moment. Well…What to tell, well this year is seriosuly going so well for me already. I’ve had 6 photoshoot all together, I’ve been ill again and uni …well is just uni etc. Well we had a lot of snow! Appologese for not having pictures, been concentrating on my health getting back to being a non sniffle face.

C&G Photo has started up, a photo business for me and Chaz. We’ve had two shoots so far and both with the lovely Elise-Ashleigh with Rebecca Yeates doing the hair and make-up. First shoot we did was more about the clothes and the 2nd well Chaz purchased and amazing mask form ebay so we played around with that. Examples:
First Shoot:-


Second Shoot:-

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My photography has been going well, I’ve ony had to reschedual one shoot due to health and weather but everything else seems to be on track! I had a photoshooot with the B-E-A-U-tiful Rosie, shots turned out lovely and I must say my torn down room made the photos very nice . Stefan Wells, from college, had a photoshoot with me. Mainly to build up my male side of the portfolio, I shot around the corner from my college and it was a pretty good location, a bit worn down. He wore all AllSaints clothes, as he works there lol. Examples:

Rosie Shoot :-

Stefan Shoot:-

I do wish I had some behind the scenes done but unfortunatly it was just me and the model on these shoots, but as I have a busy schedual ahead of me untill the end of March I should have plenty *fingers crossed*. Also I like to add I’m now represented by an agency, extremly happy about this, looks as if my hard work is now finaly paying off.

Well I hope not to be a stanger for tooo long .

A Change

I think today is probably going to be a day that changes me.

Why?

Because today I went, and I changed myself. Again I am feeling more determind than anything right now. In less than a year I’m 20 so it only seemed right. From the images you’ll see that I have cut the brown natty hair. Looking at old images now I can see it not who I am, it’s what you’d prefered I’d be.

Well anyway… here is a before shot from about a day ago, me and chaz ventured to some woodland place near his house very cold and pretty…

I’d planned on dying my hair back to dark brown/red for about 3months now and because my hair was such a mess I didn’t do it but 2weeks ago I bought some hair dye and it’s been sitting on my self for ages…also I love it when hairdressers cut your hair but seriously I prefere my own styling.

The Proccess…FUN FUN FUN…

The Results

Today I also recieved my new lens…I wanted a fixed lens like my old 50mm F1.8, but I didn’t want to repurchase it. Reason, I just felt the lens to restricting at 50mm. So after a long debate on which lens I wanted I finaly decided on the Simga 28mm F1.8, I really like the high aperature while still keeping a fairly wide angel to the shot.

Here is my new toy

Coffee Coffee Coffee!

I have found a new love for coffee, well not just any coffee…MOCHA…

” A Café mocha is a variant of a cafe latte. Like a latte it is typically one third espresso and two thirds steamed milk, but a portion of chocolate is added, typically in the form of sweet cocoa powder, although many varieties use chocolate syrup. Mochas can contain dark or milk chocolate. ” -Wikipedia

I have a craving for one now, it’s my new accessory!!

I have had one at least once a week  for work since Chaz introduced me to this beauty!! Oh plus starbucks are the only place you can make it the way I like it and yes I’ve tried everywhere else.

(my son visited me at work, I was eating my dinner)

NEW YEAR

Well again there is a lot to update on, please forgive me I get a bit tired of writing sometimes; mainly because I’m not that good at it. Well 29th was amazing, Chaz turned up an hour late to my house…but it’s okay because I was still asleep. As most of you know I bought him an xbox 360, he loves it. When I said he could play with it his face was just lit up with a huge smile…bless him.

Well he spoilt me, I was so shocked to see the presents when he carried them down. Here’s a list…
*Fluffy socks (because mine got all holes in);
*Oil burner;
*A Guy Bourdin book;
*A “unseen VOGUE” book (which has really helped with my history essay);
*Water bottle with bath stuff;
*Fujifilm Digital compact camera in green, my favourite colour ;
*And a 120year old book of the “Poetical works by Edgar Allen Poe”.
The book was the best thing; no one has really given me anything so sweet before. The weird thing is 5months together and I feel like I’ve known him forever, it’s just so unusual that someone knows me almost inside and out *girly giggles*.

I spent every day with Chaz last week and non of it was boring at all.

For New years we went to his friends house in Birmingham and had our own little party…I must say I was drunk by half 7 and I did manage somehow to make it to the new year (well only just).

A lovely picture of me passed out after texting my mum

(to see more new year pictures then you could always add and visit my facebook).

Merry Christmas

I’d like to say Merry Christmas to everyone who has followed this blog and my photography. I hope everyone has got what they wanted. I got £80 to pay for my trip to Barcelona in March and also Photoshop from my Dad in Texas. I haven’t yet received Chaz’s present(s) because (as I stated in my last blog) we don’t get to see each other until the 29th…we’re having our own little christmas.

Over this holiday I have a report and an essay to start on for university. Also the other night me and chaz decided to look for places near London where I could do my top up for the BA Hons, he came across Amersham & Wycombe College (which is south of Buckinghamshire) which sounds a bit too perfect…hopefully we can go to the open day in June, there is one in march but thats the day we go to Barcelona.

2009 is going to be a great year, I will make sure of it. I got so far this year with my photography but I had a few stuff happen at the beginning of the summer and when I was just starting to get my mojo back I became really ill and haven’t really recovered. I am so determind to be a GREAT photographer, I want to go back to my own style aswel as doing other stuff. So hopefully having the greatest boyfriend (in the worldddd!!) who is also very determind should really help out a lot.

Well anyway take care everyone!!

Updates for December

Well there is a lot to update on; I have a few pictures to show as well. It’s Christmas in less than a week now. I’m not getting anything on the day as I have already had my presents (Barcelona in March and my room), the day that I’m really looking forward to is the 29th as me and Chaz are having our very own Christmas.

Again sorry for the lack of posting, I was struck down with tonsillitis starting last Thursday and still really recovering. For those people who have had tonsillitis then you’ll know it’s absolutely horrible. Well anyway, I have now broken up for Christmas from uni now and been doing a bit of overtime at work since the end of November.

9th December 2008:
I had a photoshoot with my friend Helen. She asked me a while ago to do some portraits for her and because I’ve been so busy I hadn’t really had the time… BUT now I had a few spare hours. She knew exactly what kind of images she wanted which really helped; distinct black and white multi-tonal shots. My friend Stephen (who has now earned the title of mine and chaz’s son at uni) was hanging about the studio so I decided to bring him in on the shots. They turned out pretty well.

10th December 2008:
Chaz wanted to do a photoshoot with me, so we decided to go with the “school girl” theme. This was shot in the studio at uni and was a lot of fun. I had high fluffy pig tails, long black stocking socks and two apples…FUN. Instead of using just the simple black/white backdrops he decided to pick a nice blue and also a brown, which made the images stand out.

(Behind the Scenes)

(Final Shots)

11th/18th December 2008:
CHAZ’s BIRTHDAY, we went to Birmingham but this was when I got really ill so we came home and I decided to die. Yesterday we re-celebrated his birthday by going to the Christmas Market in Birmingham again; it was such a good day. Having great company is what it’s all about!! We had a bit of a romantic session sitting by the fountain, all the lights shining while drinking hot apple/cherry wine; after that we got a bit merry and decided to venture to habitat.

I cannot wait until the new year.

Winter Rush

Just come off the phone to the greatest Mr Charles Barnes and he sounds a bit better than yesterday. He’s been very ill, more than what I was actually so I’m guessing he caught it off me. Wooops sorry baby.

 

There is something about this photo that puts me at ease. This past month I have been really ill, tired and just really stressed in general. I’ve even had the thought about quitting university, but obviously I haven’t. No point wasting my education all because at one point I can’t cope… So anyway, before I took this photo earlier today I was in a good mood, sitting on the bus, plying “Secondhand Serenade” on the iPOD Chaz leant me and just thinking how good my life really is. So on the way into Great Glen and into Burton Overy the area around me was covered with this thick fog and it was so wierd because when I was at uni I could see everything clearly. I thought when I got in that I should take a picture, so I peeped over the fence in my garden and took this.

In December I am so busy with work and uni again so really this is kind of the last day I will get to be stress-free, so I do apologise if I snap at ANYONE during next month. I’ll just look at the photo above when I can, it’s just so relaxing.

A Letter To You:

This has taken me at least 2and a half hours to write, it’s just so hard writing things down. So yes here we go….

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For a while I felt like I was trapped and then you came along. The day we sat in front of the mac and went through all those songs, knowing you were the only person who remembered p-rock to be a good chanel, for some reason it had truely brightened everything and lifted all the negative thoughts I was thinking at the time. After that when we kept seeing eachother at college I always had a smile on my face and it was because of you, you had this (and still do) charming sense about you which just made me melt. I tried so hard not to think about how you made me feel, for obviouse reasons, but everytime you walked past me and said hello or the converstions we had I couldn’t help but to think, what if?

Now I have you I seriously couldn’t wish for anyone better. Today, just like when we first started to talk, I just felt a bit lost with things at university and then you walk in and for some reason you made all the negative thoughts go. Yes we both had a little bit of a moan because we’re both ill but I just couldn’t help but sitting there and thinking “I am the luckiest girl in the world right now.”

What I love about you and our relationship is the fact I can have a conversation with you and not feel bored, even though half the things I come out with are just plain stupid .Just laying there in your arms and not having to care about anything, except for us two in that moment. I love how we can sit there and be the most soppiest people in the room and don’t give a damn about who is around. I also love how much we have in common.

I know, I must get really irritating at times when I’m talking about wanting this and wanting that…and how much I hate my appearance. I must admit I do get scared sometimes, am I what you thought I might be? Do my little nags/moans put you off? I just feel like I’m not good enough for you. My life is just too structured and boring, I want to have adventures with you… just be a bit spontantious. I love being your girlfriend and I will do anything to make you happy and I want to be with you for as long as you want me. 

Well I suppose what I’m trying to achieve with this is to make you realise just how much you mean to me even if you do or don’t know. The best times I have is when I’m with you.

I love you Charles

xxx

Birthday & What Not

Well a week ago today I turned the gloryous age of nineteen. I went out with a couple of people on the friday for a meal and a dance and on saturday I woke up with Chaz next to me, was just so relaxing. He got me some perfume (Lacome; been wanting it for agessss), a photography book and gig tickets to see FINCH next Sunday. He then took me to Birmingham to the Christmas Market. Unfortunatly I didn’t take any photos at the Christmas Market but I will be going again soon so I will then…

(a few visuals for the post)

I have been quite ill this week, it came on last Sunday with my throat starting to feel dry and I just thought it was because I hadn’t had any water…I got worse over the next couple of days. Looks as if everyone is getting ill at the moment.

I haven’t done any photographic work since my last post; well except university work. BUTT this week (because my portfolio is lacking male portraits) I have a friend at my place of study who has agreed for me to take advantage of him …and also last week I (well Chaz) purchased a remote timer for my 40D so I will be able to do more self-portraits because I hadn’t done any decent ones in about a year.

Argh!

RANT RANT RANT!

Aha, Well this fireworks assignment is not going well at all. Obviously it’s a quick assignment but it’s so annoying. I shot two films lastnight, developed them today and printed my “final” print. I then spoke to my tutor who said he wanted more out of the image. So yes, I’m gonna have ot go shooting again tomorrow night or even saturday… tut tut.

“It’s out of your comfort zone, which is what I like to see”- Paul O’Leary (Leicester College FD Tutor)

Great tutor but he can be mean XP.